Epiphany!

Since the last time I wrote here, a lot has happened. I basically had an emotional melt-down. I mean, I didn't go crazy or anything I just had a grande realization: I do not want to teach elementary school. I don't want to teach children how to do math, learn history, etc. I disagree with the way so many teachers take advantage of the power of the position and use it to teach only what they deem relevant. There is a lot I disagree with about the practice. I would bore you or anger you if I went on pontificating about the meaning of "being a teacher", what it should be v.s. what it really is in the year 2009. Bleh. It nauseates me to think about. So I quit.

I quit my masters program with what? maybe two classes left? I don't care. I refuse to come home from work and make my son sit in front of the tv while I grade papers. That's not quality time. So I quit.

I have wanted to go into a medical profession since my fourth semester of college. Now I am. 2 years away from a Masters in Physician's Assistant. That excites me. That ignites a passion in me that hasn't be there since I was dissecting sheep brains in anatomy while 6 months pregnant! Ha!

Toward the end of the fall semester in 2008, I had been loading myself with so much stress that I became quite ill. I had a severe flare up of ulcerative colitis (which I've had since I was 19 years old)... I was very sick over Christmas, was put on steroids and other meds (to the tune of over $500/month)... I knew something had to change. I prayed. I prayed for healing, for a new job, for guidance about my food choice, my life choices... I quit teaching. I found a replacement teacher for my HHP 314 class (even though I loved teaching it). It was a great stress relief to be free of lesson planning and paper grading. But, my stress compounded in other ways (needing money). I prayed for a door to open. I prayed for God to help me get rid of my damn prednisone chin! BLEH!

God opened a door. My chiropractor called me to come in for a meeting-offered to start me on a diet protocol designed for diabetics and individuals with high cholesterol. He's letting me be the guinea pig so he's graciously paying for my program. I've already lost over 6 pounds in 6 days and I feel better physically, mentally, and emotionally. I even think my prednisone chin has gone down! Yay!

This protocol has caused me to think more about my relationship with food and what it is vs. what I want it to be. I am now exploring that and how to change it. I am open to suggestions, advice, or links to information that might guide me on this new quest!

My blessings to you who read this~
Kim